My Old Friend Has Returned

His name is anxiety. He creeps in often. I hate him. He causes worry and shortness of breath sometimes. He causes my mind to play out scenarios over and over.
Yes indeed, Mr. Anxiety made a full fledge appearance last night out of no where. That's the worst thing about Mr. Anxiety, just when you think your are free and clear. Watch out, he's back...
I'm sure what I am feeling is the stress from the upcoming consult. The consult is the 15th, I'm throwing a Christmas party at my house on the 17th. B asked me last night, as I was discussing how my little friend has made his grand return visit, if I would like to reschedule the consult? Nope, let's just get it over with.
I feel like I'm on a see-saw of cycling. One minute I'm all for it and the very next minute, Run Forest RUN!